the First!

Me drawing Eva...I'm going to do more videos like this to upload to YouTube. Because I can and it's kind of fun to watch myself draw. There are a few times when I'm watching and I think "I don't remember doing that..".






I've been trying not to fall into the habit of being lazy for the past week. I'll be honest, it's nice to not have anything to do...but if I don't have anything to do, then it feels like I don't do anything. And I like to go to bed feeling like I've accomplished something that day.

It's a weird sort of lull. I haven't been unemployed since I was a junior in high school. I'm not saying I'm a workaholic, but basically between work and school I've had something to get up and do almost everyday from then until now. So it is strange for me.

Luckily, it doesn't look like that'll be the case much longer. I'm driving down to Bloomington on Wednesday to meet with Studio Cypher about some contract work over the summer. So here's hoping that leads to bigger and better things!

both ends of the spectrum

I can officially say that the last few months have been the most busy of my life. I've been scrambling to get my Capstone project finished and presentable, juggling other classes and work, moving, settling, and countless other little things.

On the happy end of the spectrum is my Capstone presentation. I don't think it could have gone better, honestly. I was happy with the turnout, I was happy with my finished pages and interactive flash display, I was happy that both my parents got to see what I've been working on for the past four months, and I was happy that my project got such a good reaction from everyone who took the time to see it.
After almost a week of either little sleep or extremely restless sleep at someone else's house, it was great to finally be able to relax in my own apartment on my new couches and just do NOTHING. My dad stayed overnight and we spent Saturday together...I basically didn't even turn my computer on over the weekend.
Having finished something so huge (well, finished as far as school is concerned..), I really feel like I could take on the world. Here was a project that, from the start, was very close to my heart. It was the start of something that Laura and I have been thinking about doing for years. Now it's pretty hard to stop. I'm on a roll.


And then Monday hit!


I woke up to a voicemail from my coworker asking to send him the things I'd been working on and making some comment about not being sure what I wanted to do with my personal stuff. And that confused me a little....until I checked my work email and found a message saying that the past week had been my last at Sticky Matters. It was dated Wednesday, which was the day that I was called and told that everybody would be working from home on Wednesday because they weren't sure about the situation with the office building (since our primary investor had run into trouble). Now...maybe I'm being a little paranoid and/or bitter, but to me it seemed like that phone call was a way to keep ME out of the office the day they decided to lay me off. I don't know, I'll ask Kelly to see if anyone else was asked to stay home that day.

Anyway...One small blessing in that was the fact that I didn't have internet access in the house I was staying at, so I didn't get that email before Capstones. Because if I had known that I was laid off before Capstones, that night would have turned out MUCH differently.

So there's that.



This situation is still FAR from ideal, but I don't know...I have this feeling that this is one of those big bumps that I've got to get over before finding something better.

If there's one thing that life has taught me so far, it's that things work themselves out if you just trust in yourself and keep an eye out for opportunities.


And that's my last three months or so in a nutshell.

one more thing.

Note the caption under the website title "Good Game for Your Whole Family".




If you make it so that the cannibals outweigh the missionaries, then the missionaries get "eaten" (meaning they turn into what looks like a steak".



What. the. hell.

mmmmmmore doodles

and then i KICK


Bored Fairy...

(direct quote from myself...it was a weird night.)

Jasper

He's about an inch high...

Juniper (duh)

She's been hanging around since about December and I haven't come any closer to finishing her...so I'll just post what I have so far.

have you ever...

Ever been driving and listening to your iPod/CD/whatever when a song comes on that matches the mood of the day and the scene so perfectly it feels like you're in a movie? You know those scenes in movies with montages of characters driving places or going about their lives? I had that happen the other day while I was on my way to work (it was rainy and gloomy). The song "Best I Ever Had (Gray Sky Morning)" by Vertical Horizon came on, and I felt like I was in some sort of emo montage from a romantic comedy, at the point in the movie when the main couple has had their big fight and they're both in their separate places feeling sorry for themselves.. Of course, my life is NOTHING like a romantic comedy, but the mood and the music just happened to fit perfectly.

Another thing I really enjoy is when a song you're listening to happens to match up exactly with the click-click of your turn signal. I discovered John Mayer's "Stop This Train" syncs with my turn signal clicking exactly. That's always fun.

Let's see, what else...

I always have to laugh when I see people jogging on the sidewalk that look like they don't normally jog. Because they just kind of look like they're running from something.


In other news, I found out I don't get the keys to my new apartment until April 1st, and I have until the 7th to move out of my current one. So that gives me roughly an extra week to get stuff together. It's looking like this move will go smoother than the past couple. I really do hope that's the case, because I don't need more to stress about right now.

I had a dream last night that I went to check out my new apartment, just do a walk-through and visit it before I moved in. The apartment complex looked nothing like the one I live in (which usually happens in dreams), first of all. There were so many hallways leading in all different directions and ending in odd places. The walls were painted deep, bright blues, and there were random signs all over the place.

I got outside (because I'm actually transferring to the OTHER building that makes up the apartment complex) and tried to find my way to the other building. But there was this tall fence and pretty tall grass between the buildings for some reason. And the only way around the fence was through these huge bleachers full of people on the other side, apparently watching a concert of some sort (I think there were fireworks..even though it was the middle of the day). Once I got through that and finally into the other building, there was another series of confusing hallways...the apartment doors were numbered in completely illogical ways.

It felt like I was going around in circles trying to find apartment 235...until I came to this giant open room with what looked like four or five sunken floor areas that were numbered. One of them was occupied by this girl who was clipping her toenails, I think. She had really greasy hair and her clothes were all a mess...her little square area was cluttered with a bunch of crap. And guess what? The sunken area right next to hers was labeled 235. As if that was going to be my apartment. This little area in a big open room, no walls, no privacy. I believe I said something along the lines of "oh, hell no" in my dream and stormed off to the office to see if I could get a different place...something along the lines of a REAL apartment. So, I ended the dream stressed about finding a way to get everything straightened out in the short week I had left.


I laugh about it now, but if something like that happened I'd have to cry.

The crazy blue walls WERE kind of cool, though.